July 2015 was when I was first diagnosed with type 2 diabetes. I was prescribed Metformin to help lower my A1C, and it came with an awesome side effect – weight loss! In fact, while taking the Metformin, I lost over 60 pounds in six months. In January 2016, I was taken off the medication because I no longer had diabetes. I’ve recently realized a few things that I wish I had known back then…
What is Healthy?
My idea of healthy back then was not having diabetes. While it’s true that being overweight often brings on type 2 diabetes, not having it doesn’t mean you’re healthy. I was so focused on getting rid of diabetes that I totally lost sight of what it really means to be healthy.
Sure, I changed my eating habits, tracked all of my food, and never forgot my FitBit, but where did that get me? Nowhere! Some of you may be asking yourself how I can say that because I lost 60 pounds. Right? Well, here’s the answer. Once I no longer had diabetes, I didn’t know how to regulate my blood sugar on my own. The weight crept back on and, before I knew it, I was back up to 259 pounds at my last check up. I didn’t fully realize that I had to sustain that lifestyle change in order to get and stay healthy!
This is ALL Me!
My last check up was on January 17 and my doctor was very concerned about my weight gain. My A1C level wasn’t high enough to warrant another prescription of Metformin, thankfully, but it did indicate that I was borderline diabetic. Dammit! I did it to myself, which means I had to change it myself. That’s exactly what I’m doing.
In true Bobbi fashion, I did nothing for the first few days after that appointment. I was overwhelmed and didn’t know where to start. It’s a hard pill to swallow when you realize you’re making yourself sick…willingly! But, by January 21, I had gotten my act together and was taking action. I started logging all of my food again, getting off my ass more, and wearing my FitBit everywhere. I realized that I had to just start if I was ever going to get it done. This time, there is no Metformin, which means all the weight I’ve lost to date and will lose in the future, is ALL ME! I used to attribute my weight loss to the medication and now I can’t.
This time around, I feel like I have better motivation. Not that having diabetes isn’t good motivation to get off your ass, but this time, I don’t have diabetes. I’m doing this because I want to, not because I’m trying to get rid of diabetes. Some of you will understand that and others won’t, but that’s okay. It works for me and that’s what matters right now. Knowing that I lost more than 60 pounds before is actually creating somewhat of a competition because I want to prove to myself that I can do this.
I can’t rely on a medication to regulate my blood sugar, so I have to do it myself. I’ve learned how to do that effectively. I’ve learned more about what my body can do and I make sure I push it. I used to strongly dislike sweating because I didn’t like the way it made me feel. I still don’t like it but I can take a shower any damn time I want and feel better. I didn’t like breathing heavy while exercising and I still don’t. But, the more I do it, the easier breathing becomes. I didn’t have this seemingly simple knowledge the first time around.
I’ve also learned a lot more about carbs and sodium and, other than my coffee, water is the only thing I drink. I’ve even cut back on my coffee, and that’s saying something! I’ve learned so much about a lot of things but the one thing I’ve fully realized is that I don’t ever want to go back. If that means using Lose It! and FitBit every day for the rest of my life, so be it.
Since January 21, I’ve lost 28 pounds and well on my way to living a much healthier and happier life. The next step is for me to step up my exercise and introduce strength training for toning. The weather is getting warmer (well, we have our days…lol) and I’ll be able to get outside more often. I much prefer to walk outside than to be inside working out to a video.
What it all boils down to is I’m finally ready to make a permanent change in my life. I’m going to have plateaus and setbacks but I’m going to keep moving. It took me 6 months to re-gain 47 pounds so it’s going to take me a while to take it off again. The good news is that I’m moving in the right direction.